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Name: Chaz
Location: Kansas City, Missouri, United States
Birthday: 6/13/1984
Gender: Male
Interests: My real hobby is working on my screenplay. Other than that there is not that much I play games with my friends, Halo is what I'm best at. I also like to read and play on computers.
Expertise: I'll just say that I'm handy with many things
Message: message me
AIM:  Phchz02
Member Since:
1/15/2004
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| There's nothing really to say. Nothing is really going right. When I try to fix things it gets worse. When I leave things alone they get worse. My circle of friends are broken. I feel broken. I still don't seem to be doing anything right. This feeling of being alone and cast out looms heavily inside me. I'm not even sure if im looking for hope anymore. For a very long time I would say to myself that it would change. Things would change. And now... I'm thinking that there not, that you just have to live with the cards you have, because they won't change. Things don't change. | | |
| It just must be this day I guess. Why is it that I can't seem to have what I really want? Everytime there's a slight chance of hope there is something or someone that puts it in darkness. I"m really sick of being hurt all the time, or lied to, or just being used. Why can't I just be the kid in the story who gets the girl. After so many repeated tragedies you start to lose faith in things, including yourself. It just feels like I got nothing left. Like, I can really say that I just don't feel like trying anymore because whats the point? A person can only take so much you know. The only semi good news I have is that I'm trying to go to New York City again tomorrow....lets see if it actually happens this time. | | |
| It wasn't suppose to end up this way. I'm very let down and dissappointed. Ended up in an airport for 6 hours in Balitmore just to find myself coming back home. I just don't understand. | | |
| I'm going to New York City again next weekend!!!! Heck yeah I'm excited.
Curiosity is not a sin.... But we should exercise caution . | | |
| So I have been driving since like forever it feels like. I just got home, I needed to clear my head. I thought if I could just process some thoughts through I might be able to start the new year right. My New Years Eve was pretty fun. I"m hoping this could be a start of a good year for a change. | | |
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